Captive | Fine Art Print

‘Captive’ - Print Three of The Generose Series

Content note: themes of suicidal thoughts, anhedonia and depression. Please read with care.

Much of my work is bright, vibrant, and has the essence of hope and light amidst the darkness.

This piece is different.
It’s raw, unfiltered, and glimpse into the dark terrain of my mind.

Prior to admission at Generose, I was experiencing severe anhedonia.
Nothing felt good or light.
I couldn’t smile or laugh.
I felt numb, empty, and indifferent. Like a burden for merely existing.

I had thoughts that were intrusive, persistent, and graphic.
They weren’t aligned with who I am, but no matter what I did, nothing loosened their grip.

I used every skill I know, and still, felt captive in my body, like a prisoner to my mind.

I was a puppet in its play, and I was terrified.
There was no way to rest and nowhere to hide.

This is not new to me. I’ve survived this living in the background of my mind for decades.

I’ve had some med adjustments, and I feel better now, but I know it’s not gone, just dormant. Lingering quietly, waiting for the opportune moment to whisper, “I’m still here.”

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Giclee print on lightly textured, natural white paper with archival pigmented inks. Created from an original watercolor painting by Megan Kunstman. Original painting size 11x14.

Prints available in sizes 5x7 through 11x14.

Please note: Each print is made to order. Please allow up to 4 business days for your order to ship. If expedited shipping is needed, please contact me prior to placing your order.

Local pick up in Rochester, MN available. If you select this option, a follow up email will be sent to arrange for pick up time.